IT'S ME

2012-02-02T20:45:00.001+08:00

30-1-2012.
Woke up at around 7/8am. Supposed to wake up later since I'm gg out for the whole day. Well maybe it's fate that I was supposed to wake up that early. The first thing I saw as I was checking my phone -- that I'm posted to Cjc, my fourth choice. It was a shock to me. (well I didn't expect to be posted into the fourth choice which is really far). What was worse was that every close friend of mine are posted to various different schools. I felt anxious and went to appeal to NYjc soon after in the day.
Well, I met up with Kelly at around 9am at nex as we are going to do some voluntary work at lorong1. We initially wanted to place the donation clothes I collected at the salvation army which is in srgn but we were running out of time. We then took 100 to the venue. We followed the google map and alighted safely. We then followed our mere intuitions and got to the place heehee. Awesome luck:D
It was a 10:30-1pm event, at a high-thrift shop. We had to arrange the clothes as there was a lot. It was overall tiring but really fun cos I dont really arrange clothes at home haha. :3
School's cool. It's a new environment and the seniors are rather friendly too. Okay the og30 mates too. I'm a bit more adapted to the school I guess. But I'm still really emo , feeling so out of place and such. Sorry 'K', for not being able to understand you. I understand now.

2012-01-19T00:20:00.000+08:00

Crazy day today at work. The queue was insanely long and I wasn't spared although I'm at the back counter. My hands are hurting :(
Morning at around 930 met huixuan Yunwei Belinda at compass point Mac for breakfast and we headed off to sengkang swimming complex soon after.
The girls were all very excited as they step into the swimming complex (cos of the slides I guess haha). Taught Yunwei how to swim and felt proud of both Yunwei and myself for the achievement by the end of the swim. We then took the lrt and went back to compass point for yoshi meal (: I had to rush to work after that :(
Anyway it's just three more days to the day when I get my freedom back. It's been so long since I spent awesome time at home with my grandparents and parents and sister. And cny's coming soon too! (: I'll have time to rest awhile before starting my Jc life. All the best to me and you for the next three days! :D

2012-01-14T16:30:00.001+08:00

Just realize its been SO long since I posted haha. Been spam (re)watching running man these days.
Some of my updates :
1) didn't really do well in my opinion. Proud of my improvement though. 6 grade jump for both sciences. :D hcl too. :D got an a1. :D okay but that's my only achievement haha.
2) high fever (~38.5) for six hours as soon as I got home after results day haha. Epic. Before that watched MI with the girls. It was awesome!
3) first choice for jae is nyjc, second meridian. Heard lots of ppl gg ny. Hope I get in! Taking CLEP!
4) hurt my left wrist from work ystd sobs.
5) going work now! Sam's Last day. Not going same school together :( well! Bye then haha. :3 will try to remember to update more often!

meanwhile, visit my blogshop!! http://www.withmirth.blogspot.com

2011-11-23T21:56:00.001+08:00

Been job hunting today with Sam. Went hougang, then compass point, kovan, nex and back to hougang. Very scary haha. Went To shops like ntuc , mr bean, Helen, metro, isetan, popular, Sasa, bread talk etc . Popular was like "no vacancies, u can check other outlets like ...". Lol. The popular all say same thing sia haha! Anyway it was quite fun. Very nervous at the start, but few shops later became like ok go in straight ask type haha.
Chalet tomorrow :D excited !

2011-11-21T01:15:00.001+08:00

It's been SOOO long since I posted .

Okay first up.
Os over ! :D
Okay I know it's like already over for like quite some time, but still ~ okay . Though it's after Os, I sometimes will still type "after Os..." haha! Okay anyway. End of Os didn't really feel special. It's just "oh its over, so?" kind of feeling.
Second, the blogshop kelly&i partner to work together is finally open!! :D:D:D do support www.withmirth.blogspot.com !

Second, been emailing RWS and artstagesingapore for jobs but no replies. Kelly just told me she found a job. Felt a lil upset cos ya, we sort of agreed to go job hunting together. But yea, it somehow never happened. Well ~ guess I'm not supposed to be relying on anyone but myself so that I can be even more independent. Well ~~
Friends around me all getting jobs one by one. I'm not in a position to like be resentful like "why I no job" kind of thing cos I've not been working hard for it. But it's like I'm a lil upset cos I feel abandoned. Friends whom I've been talking about going job hunting excitedly are now getting jobs and our promise for job hunting hasnt started. Ok, maybe it never existed.

Third. Tried many new things this week. During class chalet, tried mahjong for the first time (won five times in total, four of which like in a row one. Happyhappy). Fried mutton rice too. :D and made jam bread. Entering a sauna (ok a few seconds) And lots more. Quite awesome :D
made a pizza today. Bought the flour from ntuc and made it. Damn cool:D it turned out okay (: making pancakes tomorrow :D

Fourth. Okay i know I'm ultra lame, but I just stood by the window for like four minutes videoing the sky above the block opposite me (imagine~) lol. Cos a lot of lightnings going on. One day, I'll take shots of lightning. It's a promise to myself.

Fifth. Did a good deed today. Okay la it was like a 理所当然 de thing but I feel awesome after doing it. I alighted from the bus and it was raining. I saw this old grandpa walking alone with a packet of rice I think, and a walking stick. He didn't have an umbrella with him and is drenched so I help him 撑伞. He v cute heehee. Then ya. Cos his legs pain. Then by the time he cross half of the road red light Liao. But he continued crossing. Then got this driver go horn him. Go die la! Lol. Damn grrrr when he/she did that. Come on its just like a few seconds' wait. Anyway. Then brought him over to the bus stop. Then he saw ok Liao here Jiu ok then I climbed up the stairs cos I thought he waiting for bus. Turned around and I saw him climbing the stairs too. Lol then I was like "aiyo come up also never tell me still say never mind". Then I went back to help him climb the stairs. He was saying something in hokkien but I can't hear him cos he was really soft. So ya. Just "heehee" "oh~" all the way. Haha.

Okay then, go read manga Le. Life isn't bad. It's just that I haven't got to appreciate the good parts. Life's awesome as how it is. Bye bye !

2011-10-09T18:13:00.001+08:00

Dk why , just feel like spam blogging lol.
I just heard kjk's 어제보다오늘더. Super nice :D okay I know it's a relatively old song but yea. His voice's nice (:
Also heard haha's 새song & rosa. Lol. Very light mood.
Lol huixuan and I were imagining if it's Gary or kjk singing it :D lol it'll be hilarious. Okay now. Going back to study. Bye ~~

2011-10-09T16:42:00.001+08:00

It's weird how sometimes I feel that I have tons of friends , while in reality I am actually not the one whom friends think of first. Idk , it's just that no matter how I try to care or tell them that "if there's something wrong I'm always here", no one actually gets it. Maybe except for sam&shan but ya. No one actually really remembers me when they need help / when they need someone. It just makes me exhausted at times , and I just feel like "forget it, I'll still be alone in the end. So why bother caring". But on second thought, I start to contradict myself by thinking how ridiculous it is for me to think like that because of such tiny issues because there is this many people outside of my small tiny world for me to show my care and concern to. Even if there isnt any rewards or whatnot , just plainly showing them that there is someone who is willing to care is a blissful thing to do. (: well , I'll try to fix the negative thoughts asap :D

2011-10-09T14:23:00.000+08:00

Life's okay so far. Feels a lil weird now that Os are just round the corner and yet I have this like ok ok feel.
Yesterday mei was telling me her blogshop earning money. I asked her if she can tell me who her supplier is, she say I snatching business from her. It kinda hurts me when she says that, cos that is obviously not my intention. Maybe this type of thing is just how i grew not to expect so much from people. Well, I'll look for a supplier myself after Os, andmy revive my blogshop:D
Okay. Chemistry-ing now , bye then (:

2011-10-07T06:53:00.000+08:00

I'm having mixed feelings about school today.
I'm glad today's Friday because it's the language day, and it's short (not for today, cos today got ~3 ssp waiting for me). I'm also glad it's today as next week on is the study break for us.
However I'm not really happy cos of today being the last day as classmates in 4e1. I'll come to miss a lot of laughters and fun times with the other 43 classmates.
I'll miss Sara's "poking me in my cheeks" prank,
Me pranking en ping,kelly,huixuan,
Adeline&jolynn&jialing's jokes,
talking to belinda,Kelly,Yunwei,huixuan,Emily,
taking the same bus as chloe and chit-chatting,
Moira suddenly turning back to chit-chat,
having Shannon beside during Chinese lessons,
gwyneth&seraphyn's laughter,
Weixin's cute giggles,
Caitlin's laughter,
Pranking jaycelyn&jeslyn&xinkai,
Jermaine&Tsae woei's random craziness (:D),
Aqilah's chats,
AND I'll miss everyone :D

The teachers too (:
AND also having recesses with sam&peishan(:

Lol it sounds really emo and stuff , but it's just what I'm thinking now. I wanted to not write these, cos emo doesn't really tally with me. Like i don't go feeling 感性 often although u might think otherwise. Lol. Okay la. I'll enjoy today happily. Bye then.

PS: I never write your name doesn't mean I don't care or something. It's just that I'm on the bus to school now and a bit rush for time yeah. :D
<3!

2011-10-06T06:48:00.001+08:00

Guess it's been long since I posted , haha.
Some of my seedlings unfortunately , died :(
My dad says they ain't meant to live. Though I thought they need a support to climb on so as to grow.
Oh good news ! There are now an addition of five tomato seedlings :D I was so excited when the first one came out , then got even more excited when the next few came out the next day (: it's been a few days since they sprouted, and they are still growing healthily. I hope they continue to ! (:
Yesterday was a chemistry day again, though it's supposedly emaths. Ended up doing chemistry haha. The whole table was in such a mess cos I literally had everything everywhere (:
Lol I have been contemplating whether I should cut my hair by a few inches or just tie it. I don't like tying it. It seems go expose my fat face even more plus it feels somewhat empty lol. Idk how to explain. Maybe it's cos I haven't been able to tie my hair for four years :o psychological barrier :/
Oh. Jialing told me that snsd's album will most likely be out on 30th oct. Omg can't wait. But it's somehow during the Os period, which is quite sad though, since itll be a busy period for me.
And their Asia tour concert will be held in December this year, which is worse although I want it fast badly , cos I'll have to buy the tickets most probably during the Os period :( but still , I can't wait ! :D "the boys" will be back to Continue dominating kpop :D
Okay bye for now then (:

2011-09-26T18:44:00.001+08:00

Today isn't a good day at all. Got back my chem and amaths papers. Not well done. Was really disappointed.
But yea, I'll work even harder (:
school ended at 6pm for me cos of the physics timed practice. It was okay. But got one question worth ten marks I'm not really sure how to do it. :(
I was reflecting. Im really not putting in effort for what im supposed to be doing.
Okay. Time for dinner. Bye (:

2011-09-24T14:26:00.001+08:00

Its been SO long since i used the computer. GOSH. fascinated at how blogger changed this much, haha.

Had English post test today. lol. was in the auditorium. went home with peishan. actually i didnt expect to see her; neither did she expect to see me. lol. we just bumped into each other at the interchange. oh, yunwei bought a baby smurf toy (:

Just finish reading through the lit prelim 2 answer key and some of the sample essays given.
~~chloe ah, i had a hard time reading your words!~~

currently doing the chem paper that was given during our prelim paper lol. going off to tuition soon. oh . gonna share with you my baby's breath. lol. no idea why its called like that, and i didnt know such flower exists. i planted them on 17th sept, and the first batch of pics were on 22nd. they grew :D

But you can see how i am so not a good gardener haha.

22nd Sept:

LOL. pardon me for the not good photography skills.

took some photos today too. but rushing off for tuition now. will post next time if i ever remember :D

2011-09-23T14:54:00.000+08:00

I went to watch Johnny English Reborn with Belinda Yunwei Huixuan Emily. The show was really hilarious and I liked it. There isn't any point in time where I feel bored because of the plot or something. Rowan Atkinson grew old (heh heh) but he's still real funny (:
I found an awesome site : http://kimhyoyeon.net (:
Okay. Then today , results for hcl , lit , English and emaths were out. Ms Teo didn't really gave us our emaths results. I asked her after recess when I met her at the corridor. I was so happy and instantly forgot about my hcl results lol.
My hcl results deteriorated. I was really disappointed. But I couldn't bring myself to plunge into distress(right word I guess) cos it's no where near the end. Mdm Zhang Yan once said that I'll get only an a2 for my Os. I don't want to prove that she's right. I know I can get an A1 if i try, and I want to.
English .. Grades dropped by one. But I'm really happy for my summary and my composition. My summary was the highest in my band lol. :D like a rare thing that it happened twice (Prelim one too). Yea. But I didn't know that the word limit of 160 words was inclusive of the 9/10 words given to us. And got one mark off due to that. Anyway ~ then compo .. I didn't know the composition I did was a discursive kind of essay. But I was lucky to get 21. :D
Lit was like .. Hmm .. No feel. Just also a bit sad. <s>Could do much better if I wasn't sick. Cos I was having fever that day. Yup. </s> Can't use sickness as an excuse!
Had an AWESOME pe game today. Though it was just a simple 15 minutes game , I think it was like the most entertaining one ever. Im kind of disappointed when em wet over to play bball with the guys. There's only like one or two more pe sessions left before I can no longer play with them ... :(

2011-09-20T15:33:00.001+08:00

Today's an off day for me. No papers. But I still went to school though. Go study plus pass hx Sam peishan Kelly cake I baked.
Board the bus at 9:30am. Lol. They ended the geog paper at that time. Was quite late.
Kelly called me first. Then about a few minutes later sam called. Then about the same interval, lol, then peishan called. Passed the cakes to peishan & Sam at the inter. Lol. Then huixuan at the carpark near mama shop. Then couldn't find Kelly at school bus stop so called her. In the end she was at opp 7-11 haha.
We went to the ne corner. I opened my tys and not Long after there was this lime green worm (caterpiguessIng guess) on my book. Lol we sprung away from the book then I tapped the worm away on the table at the side haha. Good luck to the person who's gonna use the table later.
Then we went back to work in class. Lol. Most efficient study time ever. We were super focused. Yaole & Gwyneth were outside. I was playing some yiruma songs & also fur Elise and marriage d amour for Kelly (on my phone -- YouTube. Not the hands-on play lol). Then it started pouring real heavily. Yaole & Gwyneth finally came into class to avoid getting drenched lol. Then Kelly left at about 1pm.
I stayed till about 2:45pm then went to the school canteen for lunch. I saw something weird at the vegetarian stall. "vegetarian special : chicken chop" :O okay anyway. Had my meal and was contemplating whether I should ask ms Alicia Ng out to clarify some qns. In the end I did. Lol.
Then I saw my dad at the inter. Checked out the bbt shop there. Expensive :( lol. Then waited for 109. It finally came after like 10+ minutes. I felt a little guilty not boarding my dad's bus but well ~ then it was when I was on the bus that I recalled I have two questions I still need to clarify lol. Nvm. Okay then. That's my day. (:

2011-09-06T21:45:00.000+08:00

Lol guess what. I'm okay now :D
Perspective changed :D okay.
Sometimes I really wonder how I get so happy suddenly lol.
Hmm I itch to watch family outing :D okay la the episode with 탱구 in. Haha.
I watched the whole of Fo2 before I chanced upon fo1. Like what a lot said, fo1 really focuses more on the family feel. Fo2 is more on yoon&taec scandal (lol). Not say I dont like la. But somehow don't tally with the aim of the show. fo1 de cast are like all v harmonious and close with one another. I felt it within one episode. I love yoojaesuk:D lol I think his mc-ing is like really top class man. No wonder he is the nation mc. (or smth like that).
Lol less than 50 days to Os. Omg. Bye then :D

My aim in life is to not forget how to smile (^з^)-☆

2011-09-06T21:31:00.001+08:00

Had emaths & amaths mavis Prelim papers these few days. Amaths papers are total killer. I heard it's H2 standard. Hai :(
Emaths papers still doable. But some qns not so sure.
Tml's phy paper. Thurs' chem. Hate them lol. Actually don't really hate them la. Just hate the results every time lol. Without fail, it'll sure be like "fail" lol haha. Okay I'm lame. Currently studying phy. Feel like ripping the tb apart lol.
Bad news. Chalet not booked yet and now what. Budget got problem. It's like ever since the first career seminar I've been saying "need book early" etc. What's the purpose of saying it that early. It's so things can go on smoothly. Ok maybe I'm not standing in others' perspective. I know they are busy and stuff. I really know. But it's really like .. Ah forget it. Hopes are declining anyway. Or should I say there weren't any left after 21august .
Okay bye then. Oh if people do read this blog and reply me via the tagboard thingy, I wont be able to view it since i post via emails. Oh okay bye then (:

I love living life :D

2011-08-18T16:14:00.000+08:00

Today is okay so far. The express Chinese people got back their results fr Chinese today. Felt somewhat sad fr those who are disappointed :(
Hope they cheer up soon .

I feel so far from Belinda these days. I know cos she got her boyboy then I need to understand her. But ya. Except like when we sit side by side when he's not in the same class or during assembly , we don't interact that much. Well ~~

Oh. I'm rather happy today too. Lol mixed emotions. I got highest fr lit test (: 74% :D I hope I'll continue to improve !

Mum's sick these days. I hope she gets well soon !! D:

Well. Many things are coming and I think I have to face then sooner or ltr anyway. Jiayou me (:

I can't wait fr charlotte's one year birthday ! :D

2011-08-14T09:55:00.000+08:00

Currently doing nothing lol. Okay la trying to do ss SEQ haha.
helped fry some fishes lol. Helping mop floor now haha. Don't want do homework :(

2011-08-13T07:41:00.001+08:00

Currently at Mac. Have been waiting ever since 7am and out of four people, only one came. Nice one.
现在少年的时间观念真好呢。

2011-07-28T18:50:00.001+08:00

Yesterday's oral exam was quite screwed. Lack vocab haha. But mdm jennifer ng say content was ok, but grAmmer need improve lol.

Today feels really long. Haha it's as if time went past really slowly. Ms Ong LH is really good. I like her (:
Oh and I was sooooo elated that there'd no ss ssp today haha.
Ok aft school went to study w Kelly. A bit more productive than the last time haha. Finished 1.5 of amaths hw. :D pondered over a question which was super easy. Was stuck at it fr like 30mins or smth. In the end went to as ms Eileen tan haha.
Lol otw home on crowded bus. Bye then (:

2011-07-28T00:11:00.000+08:00

Okay Im supposed to be sleeping now, 12:08am Liao.

Today was okay day. Not so good bah if i really want to say what I was feeling. Well things got better now so ya. It'll pass soon (:

Snsd's holding their first solo concert in Singapore next year in feb. I want to go D: but I can't. Sad. I hope they have an awesome time here!! Though I can't go, I'm still feeling excited haha. FIRST solo concert in sg leh :D honored.
Ok anyway. Nights (:

2011-07-25T18:59:00.001+08:00

안녕 ~
Today's an okay day, not so much fun not so much boredom. Went pasta mania for lunch. Lol surprisingly Emily finished first. She's always the last one to finish her meal. The lit workshop was okay. But basically no interaction with the other schools' people though :O
Climbed the stairs otw back. 1.23minutes for 10 storeys. Lol it's slow, but it's the best I can give given my tired body lol. Okay la. Going to do hw Le, bye (: 90 more days , and counting.

2011-07-23T18:10:00.000+08:00

안녕 ~ (＾ｰ^)ノ

Okay day today. Morning take edusave grant or something like that. Took with Tsae Woei. Had a nice chat (: then went expo it fair. Nothing much. Then went home for a bath before going tuition. Was almost late for tuition haha. Slept for a while after I reach home after tuition. Tired D: was in a foul mood when I was woken up for dinner lol. My mum rented hp7 part 1 , watching it ltr I guess (: off for dinner now, bye !

It's just me being unfamiliar to your "closeness".

2011-07-22T20:20:00.001+08:00

Disregard my emo-ness in previous post. It's just me thinking too much.

Nothing really happened today. Met mrs raj for the one-to-one conver for lit. Helped me quite a bit. At least I know what I can do to improve. Currently doing amaths :D I really hope I can do it for Os! I want go JC :/ I can do it. I'll do my best. It wont be just talking. Okay. Goin back t work. Bye (:

2011-07-21T18:12:00.001+08:00

Happy day today (: not really happy throughout the day, but at least it ended nice (: just left school and waiting for bus now ~ ten more minutes gosh. And I'm tired D:

Saw the shortlisted people for the SPC scholarship award 2011. Was wondering why you never ever mentioned. Ain't we friends who've always been talking about everything? Or am I the only one who thinks that way? Friends with secrecy are understandable, but this issue isn't even something secretive. Well you can think that I'm exaggerating and whatnot , but it's just my opinion, from my point of view. So many things changed, and I realized that I don't actually know you well. What you are really like, what you like ... It's weird. You seem so near, yet so unfamiliar. Will I ever get to know you well?

Well, I guess it's life, how you meet all kinds of people, yet know none well enough (:

2011-07-20T16:25:00.001+08:00

An okay day , now otw home. Got a shock from mum's call cos I was on earpiece then her "Xuan ah" came w max volume lol.

It's nigel's birthday today. Haha it's epic how no one realized. Went icing room to make him a cake aft school w kelly zhengda belinda, since everyone busy w ssps. Then decided to surprise him and waited at outside classroom there fr him t arrive. Waited fr like 20 minutes lol. In the end he saw us there Le. Lol epic fail.

And, why am I listening to the music the guy behind me is playing when mine is playing thru the earpiece -.-ll

I realize everyone's turning so moody these days. I don't know if it's because of exams that are coming soon , or some other stuff, but I really don't like it when people around me get this moody and I can't do anything about it. Not just u, really. A lot of people are losing the "spark" they used to have. They used to be smiling so much last time. Now it seems so rare to see them glowing in fun & laughter. It's as if on the surface , they are laughing ; but deep down, they aren't at all. I hope I won't lose my happiness, and I'll try my best not to. I find it rather meaningful to jot down stuffs that happened fr the day , so that when I review in the later part of my life, I'll remember what happened and laugh at those silly days.

I hope everyone of you will not lose the spark in you, and continue to smile (:

And, don't turn the volume to max when you're on your earpiece. Not good fr your ears !

2011-07-15T15:52:00.000+08:00

I'm alright now :D

Happy day today. Pe was fun cos it was free activities. Played childhood games like dog&bone, ice&water, monkey etc (: had so much laughter :D
lit was okay , some of us went into the music room and locked the door before mrs raj came haha. She was so shocked when she saw us (:

Had subway meal w huixuan, yunwei, Emily & belinda. Long time never eat tgt Le (: had so much laughter that I think the staff there want to shoo us away Le, lol.

Currently resting my mind. Going to download maplestory muahaha. Thanks guys fr the fun day, and thanks yunwei fr letting us Suan you (:

Cant wait fr the clique chalet :D hope everything goes smooth!

2011-07-14T18:20:00.000+08:00

Scored really badly for my Prelim one this time. Aiming to at least improve till all pass for Prelim two. 我行的.

It's just that the sarcasm from my father is so deadly that I might one day just break down and give up. He never did encouraged me before. At least, not that I can ever remember in my fifteen years of life as his daughter.

I know that's his character, but I just can't accept his behavior. And there's no use telling mum, since she'll be siding him and giving excuses like "you don't know your dad meh" etc. There's also no use telling my sis, since we dont really talk after all. I guess I'm just alone here. But I guess this just let's me learn more, that in this world, I can only survive alone, that I can't rely on other people for comfort. I guess this is why I'm like this, keeping stuff to myself and not telling anyone. I don't even tell my mum stuff now since she doesn't really understand me, and telling doesnt help at all. I would really talk to myself and solve it myself. Gosh this is turning into such an emo post haha (:

I'm currently upset , thus this emo post. I'll be okay in half an hour! Bye now :D

2011-07-12T20:03:00.000+08:00

2011-07-09T19:26:00.001+08:00

Prelim one's finally over. But this time I don't really have the after-exam mood. Maybe cos exam dao used to it Le.
At compass point now otw home. In a not-so-good mood cos I feel neglected. My sis has always been giving me cold stares. I must be grateful that she's giving me cold stares, since she doesn't even recognize my presence at times. I know I should be really happy w my life, since I'm born healthily, living w both my parents and my grandparents, and also have awesome good friends. I'll soon be happy, soon :D

2011-07-06T22:07:00.001+08:00

Slacked the whole day today. Spammed watched finish one show :D
Tomorrow mcq day. A lil worried , but idk how to prepare.
Mum was saying that kids these days are rude and rebut when parent say just one sentence while kids in the past don't even utter a sound. Then get kids from the past. I'm not them. I'm from NOW, not the past.

2011-06-06T15:43:00.001+08:00

Generally happy day for me (:
Had loads of laughs w my dear friends. And didn't get into any troubles. :D
On the way back home now!
Oh. I finally ~ bought snsd's first asia tour concert disc lol. But it's cd. Not DVD :( couldn't find the DVD one. But I like it haha. The songbook/lyricsbook got their hd pictures (:(:
Only sad thing that happened yesterday was that I accidentally reset my phone. All apps+songs+vids gone :(
Ok, bye then !

2011-05-30T21:49:00.001+08:00

not so accomplishing day today :D
went fr lunch w hx&yw&belinda. Then to polyclinic. Tml need go do lab test+xray scan. Lol. Busy. Chionging hw. Hope t complete all ASAP! Trying to work super hard fr Os. Hope it will end up in a way I dont regret (:
Deleted fb & twitter to focus more on hw. Somehow worked a little :D
Oh. Went JB on sunday fr a day. Went to two malls haha. KSL & the other one I forgot. Bought a shirt & two snsd posters :D
Okay. Going back to work, bye (:

2011-02-10T06:28:00.001+08:00

(T ^ T) having bad sore throat
On the way to school now ~ bus sever singing 吻别 but she sing like only one sentence repetitively. Lol.
Anw. Ystd's subway was woohoo~ lol third time having subway meal -.-
Went w belinda Huixuan Emily. NEX.
Went home and slept fr like one hour. :D
Nth much.
-hope I recover soon ~

2011-02-04T18:15:00.000+08:00

Second day of cny. I'm currently in boonlay, going to visit mum's uncle.

Reunion dinner was fun, as usual. Ate quite a bit D:
Then was having fun w Charlotte. Lol but she kept crying. ;(
First time didn't countdown. Didn't even on the tv. Nothing t watch.
sis slept at 10 plus. I slept at one plus.

Oh then. first day of cny , went t visit mum's side de grandparents + great grandparents. Then went granduncle's house. Then home. Played some poker cards at night. It has been long since I heard the noise of mahjong tiles :D watched 保持通话 >.< nice show (:(: slept at around one plus I think.

Today. Went t granduncle's house. At boonlay omg. Lol. Then went ganma's house. Omg waited fr the taxi fr like 20 mins -.-
Then went another granduncle's house. Now on the way back. Felt so not happy. Dk why.

Well ~ bye then. Happy cny

2011-01-23T00:48:00.001+08:00

Nothing much these days. I guess I'm working a little harder than usual this year. Have to anw. Oh. Went to talk to mr Ng and Mdm Jiang durin co. Then like all the stress accumulated all gone aft that (: but didn't manage to practice suona. Oh.
Tiankai got stuck in the comp lab 3. The tap card thing system shut down. I think cos machine no battery liao ._. then waited for super long till the uncle came to fix. Like 40 minutes or something. Then tiankai's out hehheh. I guess I'll just strive my best this year so as not to let myself down.
Went over to optician to check my eyes' degree. Left 100 right 150 :O one side went up by 50. The other by 25. Well ~ ordered geo lens lol. Eggcited.
Was browsing through my p3/4 diary. Omg it was SUPER hilarious. Plus my ridiculous handwriting. I'm sorry mrs Seah, fr letting u suffer fr this handwriting :( well ~ >.<
At amk today , then saw this guy doing flag day. He alone. Then look so sad cos no one even look at him though a lot of people. Lol then i go give one buck. Muahaha. Reminds me of my flag day. I still want flag day ~
Ok. I'm a crazy fan of snsd ~ lol. I go sleep Le, nights. Can't wait for new ep of love buffet to be out ! ;D

www.yoursilentcraving.blogspot.com

2011-01-18T21:09:00.001+08:00

I have no idea what's wrong w u. Like seriously. I cannot accept you with such drastic mood swings. Suddenly giving this I-want-kill-you face and the next second , hey-ILY face. Come on.

Well, today was supposed t meet dear ms Kaur fr coffee. But cmi last minute so ya. Then went NEX fr dinner w Emily Huixuan Belinda. Went pizza hut. OMG I SO FREAKING FULL. then got home at 8+/9pm.

I'm going fac to work out no matter what (; but I think my bmi cmi Liao -.-

Jiayou Jingxuan !

Oh I found this interesting thing on the web.

Diet for O Positive Blood Type
Blood type of a person determines eating habits, personal distastes, body metabolism, allergies and medical conditions. The O positive blood type diet helps you avoid infections and prevents various diseases. O positive blood type is said to be of the ancient man who used to live on hunted meat and seafoods. Animal protein is easily digested by the people having O positive blood group. This is the reason why O positive blood diet suggests that meat and seafood are to be consumed on a large scale. Grains and dairy products are not digested well by people with O positive blood type. Dairy products and grains were not introduced to our ancestors. Summing up these two facts, high protein and low carbohydrate foods are included in the O positive blood type diet. Following are some of the foods recommended for O positive blood type.

Basically, meat and sea food must constitute a larger portion of the diet. Whole grains must be consumed in moderate amount. Flaxseed oil and olive oil are the oils that suit the O positive blood type. In beverages, green tea is a healthy option in the O positive blood type diet. Wine and beer are the alcoholic beverages that fit in this type of diet.

When you are on a particular diet, it is very essential to know the things you can snack on. This keeps away the unnecessary cravings and helps to improve yourmetabolism. Vegetable juices, fresh fruits like pears, plums and bananas,vegetables like carrots, celery and cucumbers, as well as soy milk and rice crackers are the things that you can snack on, if you are following O positive blood type diet.

Merely changing your daily eating habits does not render the advantages of following a diet. People on O positive blood type diets must follow rigorous exercise routine, especially more of cardiovascular exercises. Aerobics is a good option for the exercise routine. Last but not the least, curb processed foods and chocolates.

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2011-01-15T23:50:00.001+08:00

Today was okay. Got parents forum. Met w Belinda early in the morning at mac. Plan t meet at 7:15. Reach at 7:00 lol. Thn wait. Belinda came, ate and Huixuan came. w weixin. Lol thn we went back school. Was idling around before parents forum started. Thn they call us move to the front. So we went t sit at the third front row. Omg. Then they talk talk talk. Aft that like nth else t do Le , then we went to class. Slacked abit thn Yaole Emily Sara Moira left t visit nafa. I waited fr alison t come t collect the ear studs. Thn Seehui kept me company. She was waiting for mr Lionel Ang. Thn I went into the class t do my hw. Lol mr lim & mrs raj passed us their Buffet food lol. Free lunch ~ thn Alison came. And I took 101 home nt long aft. Realized i didn't bring my key. Lol. Thn started spam smsing my uncle cousin mum sis. Lol. Decide t go over t my cousin's house. In the end met my grandparents when i was on my way there. 老天很眷顾我呢 ~ thn packed and went off fr tuition. Saw Alicia (mxp mate) there too. She sat beside me. Belinda never come. Thn went to eat at some place w my parents and sis. Ok la. I finally tasted kimchi :D then tried t Lian a bit of my scales cos didn't have time this entire week. I suddenly feel so lost when I hear everyone discussing abt which school they are going to go to, and which career they want. I am clueless about both as I haven found one I truly like. T.T just finished watching love Buffet's newest ep. I think it's ep five on YouTube. Yea. Nt bad la. I was sad because of the show. Dk why. Lol. Like the acting skills of the actors needs improvement plus other stuff but was still affected. Lol. Ok I go sleep Le. 11:48pm Le. I'm tired. Nights ~ (:

<i> I totally don't understand you </i>

2011-01-08T14:42:00.001+08:00

Watched 秘密花园 just now. It's about this 暴食症 girl. Was so affected that my mood was gone. Lol. I thought of how I might be faced w the same stuff cos I'm like fat too.
Well, was okay the second day after I woke up. Hehheh.
Thurs - omg I forgot if there's anything special that happened. I guess not. Lol. Since I don't remember. Muahaha. Nice memory I have.
Fri - breaking Singapore record day. We were folding paper planes like lol. Thn went to help set up the Cca orientation straight after I gobbled up my bread. I got go help ok ?! (: thn after that record breaking. Quite interesting to see whole school throw planes. Lol. Thn Cca orientation. I was at music room 2 chasing co people to hall. Thn yunwei suddenly appear and was running like mad (lol) w elaine's pipa nails. She was like asking me to go play cos only got zihui there. I was like wth ?! I totally forgot abt juhuatai and I even got one idk whose co tee frm music rm and wore it. Omg. Anw thn i went on stage and scanned thru the music score. Haven even practice thn play liao. Lol. Gaolaoshi conduct. Played twice thn started to roam to pull people into co. Lol quite fun la.
Sat - flag day. Emily suggested to meet at 6:30am fr Mac breakfast. Woke up at 5:20 , reached inter at exactly 6:30. Saw Huixuan and went mac to wait. Lol in the end Emily just woke up when we called her home. Hehheh. Thn had breakfast omg damn full. Thn go flagday. Went to braddell first t find my mum (haha) thn went bishan and stayed at amk. Lol. Satisfied w my results though the others collected more. Heh. Got one uncle even ask me whr the org is located thn I was like Eh ....... u want look at the brochure ? Lol. It was fun (: well, waiting fr belinda at kovan ~
Hehe.
www.yoursilentcraving.blogspot.com

2010-12-14T19:10:00.001+08:00

Heh , a dead blog (:
Just visited 2e3 blog . forgot there was one :o the last post was 3dec2009 . LOL . i managed to tag one (:

currently printing out kiss the rain score due to my sister. Still trying my best to do the homework. lol.
was watching some old old show with my grandparents :D
ohya! autumn concerto going to be played on mediacorp (: i was literally forcing my mum to watch it. heh heh.
LOL. oh . i found my voice three days after the camp. it's still with me (:

just recovering from gastric flu ~ it was terribleeeeeee. my mum said i looked totally pale on the first day.
couldnt eat the delicious crab that was prepared fr my grandpa's birthday ):

oh . realised i didnt talk about co camp.
it was woah - tiring.
my condition was better than sam's, yea. considering i slept slightly more. she didnt sleep the first night. i did. for ... hmm . a while. lol. 2nd night? ohmygod it was freaking cold. my legs got so numb man. lol. then after the water bomb game i stayed to clear up. wow i moved almost all the benches and tables out to bask in the sun (: super tiring. then went to audi to see what they were doing. lol when i stepped into the audi it was like "COLD!" heh. cos i never change out of my wet clothes. wasnt that wet cos only one nice nice junior pour water on me. heh. then that enzio hor ~ very naggy. lol. keep asking where i wandering off to. lol. maybe cos gonna have some debrief liao but i keep going out of audi. heh (: then we had this lucky draw thingy. i got a protracter. (: was about to sleep when my name was called. lol. then straight after they say dismiss i went to music room 2 to clear up. they hanged the banner up, then blablabla. yay and i got co a new lost-and-found box (: not say new la. it's sort of a quite old box thats like in the cupboard for quite sometime liao. got people forget take home their apple charger (i want ~) .
went home. i not quite remember what happen after i went home. i think i was too tired. was like coughing my lungs out when i was in 109. omg then nearly missed my stop cos was sleeping. hmm let me think. i think i unpacked my clothes etc, then bathed. then i think i was hmm ~ around 5+pm when i fell asleep. slept all the way till like next day noon. (hehheh). i remember i slept for 17 hours without waking up. omg first time in my life. lol. then that day i continued to take a short nap for idk how long. lol. well ~ im a pig. but was feeling so good after such long sleep. (duh~). heh. oh i still remember. when co was having buffet dinner, sam and i were running the hell out of us, from nex popular all the way via overhead bridge back school. ohmygod. damn tired. lol. i was like "sam!u damn fast seh!" that kind of feel when i was running. i aint a good runner ~ lol. but was a little disappointed cos i couldnt shout w my awesome voice during camp. that yaojie (was it him, hmm~) was asking if he can record my voice down(?!?!) .

anyway, printing's done now and im off to do something. lol. idk what i want do. ok. bye (: im glad i got to know much more friends via zhco camp 2010. i enjoyed myself during the camp though (:

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2010-11-20T22:53:00.000+08:00

Lol cip today. Same as last year's , at east point mall. Do game zone. Tiring ~ >.< but quite fun la (: did two shifts. Lol. Then school bus left without me so had t take mrt home. Yay im staying for the chalet, I think. Well, I must say I got jealous and a little upset when I saw that weibin is going t play the guitar as we sing cos I know I can play it but I want t try ma ~ but yea, I know I can't do it so yea ;( I'm not musically inclined . Can't help it :( tml got one hour of guitar lesson (: hope can learn more. But everytime like Hai ~ idk la. I shall go Emo today (:

Ps: visit
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(:

2010-11-10T15:05:00.000+08:00

Sense of Achievement ;D

added stuff to our blogshop:D go see >> http://yoursilentcraving.blogspot.com/

lol:D well, o level chinese is over. its easy for mcq, behind part a bit no confidence.
hmm. if i really never get grade a i'll drop to express chinese D:
well, currently have no idea what to do. lol. feel like playing maple :@
maybe i shall search for online games to play~ going malaysia on sat!! happy happy.
i lost passion for CO, YAY._.
well, not only me though. hai~

anywayz, emily. you look really upset these days, so really, must smile wholeheartedly next time i see you ok? :D

PS: i actually forgot my blog url, lol. x:

2010-10-14T15:16:00.001+08:00

Lol. Realize my blog's dead. Ok.
END OF YEAR'S FINALLY OVERRRRRRRRRRRRR! :D
worrying about lit results D:
Ok, had lunch at Mac, and is currently on the bus back home.
In a dilemma to whether is should :
1. Spam sleep (:
2. Spam watch drama !
3. Spam download songs :D
4. Spam practice piano/guitar !(:

Lol. Hmm lets see how it goes. Haha. Emily wanted to spam watch drama but in the end decided to go play pool. X)
Ok, I'm going to have a hard time deciding what to do. Lol. Monday got Suona practice (go CO!) :D
Well, I sorta tried my best w my studies so there's nothing much I can worry about now. Hmm.
Egg-cited about the outing tomorrow with girlfriends:D first outing in the year sia! I hope tomorrow will be a good day with good weather but I believe it'll be GREAT regardless of anything.

Ohya, I never knew stalin's josef -.-

Update:
Ok in the end I did spam watch drama. Lol. Watched idolarmy s3 :D ok. Anyway. Gng t watch teewee now, bye :D
Thanks Chloe for the tag:D !

2010-08-15T22:55:00.000+08:00

Just finish watching yin Lao Shi de concert. Not bad la.I first time see yujia cher play though. Zai;D on the way home now. Sian. Haven do chem. Tml got test. Two somemore. 告诉你：那滋味没那么好受好吗？ bye now(:

2010-08-11T17:47:00.000+08:00

Watched salt and sorcerers apprentice on fri and Sunday respectively. The latter damn nice. Go watch ~ :D
Ok. Today found my calculator:D
Liting damn funny sia. Say my hair reminds her of ms Lau-.- anyway. IM SO GNG TO CUT MY DAMN LONG AND IRRITATING HAIR. Thn weibin was like saying he saw my last time photo then saw my ya. bright forehead. keep saying. Felt abit insulted la. D: it's a past I wanna forget. But guess thats part of me and cnt be erased. :(

Tml gp's birthday. Lol. He's gonna kena lots tml. Goodluck (:

2010-07-19T22:43:00.000+08:00

Reply tags:
-qianhui
But I heard that the vulture was placed there for photo. Then the child was sent to dunno some organization right after the photo was taken. Lol. Anyway, that pic's sad. D: I wonder what happened to the child. Thanks btw :D

- qiaohan
Yea. I love piano. But my house that piano out of tune seh. Lol.
I also write abc de. Haha. Cnt read off scoresheet. Will take ages. How you start learning Korean de?
Thanks btw:D

2010-07-19T22:38:00.000+08:00

Sat -- swensens treat by my 干妈阿姨:D she's my godmother and also my ahyi(mum's sis). Anyway. I was super full after that.
I ate mushroom baked rice. Ordered deep-fried mushroom and butterfly shrimps for sides. Then sis order some baked chicken or smth. Then I ordered choco cake. Sis ordered ice-cream choco smth. My mum ordered some mushroom soup that's in a bread bun. Lol. Damn cool. Anyway. Aunt eat here eat there. Ok. Sis's ice-cream thing is humongous. My cake was ultra ultra sweet. Choco lovers will love it. Lol. Damnnnnnn sweet la. Anyway. It was nice. In the end I saw the bill, sialah. 80++ bucks. xD thankyou aunt:D

2010-07-18T16:50:00.001+08:00

Feeling crappy today. Some show viewing website keeps deleting away videos. Also dk why. Going to mysoju to watch cs later. Should be have. Crap crap. -.- amaths emaths not done. Hai. Bye. I feel sad.

2010-07-17T13:21:00.000+08:00

The photo in the link below is the Pulitzer Prize winning photo taken in 1994 during the Sudan famine. The picture depicts a famine-stricken child crawling towards an United Nations food camp, located a kilometer away.

The vulture is waiting for the child to die so it can eat it. This picture shocked the whole world. No one knows what happened to the child, including the photographer, Kevin Carter, who left the place as soon as the photograph was taken.

Three months later, he committed suicide due to depression.

http://www.foragreatercause.org/images/sudanchild.jpg

Damn depressing. Chloe dun see.

2010-07-14T23:52:00.000+08:00

I feel like a failure. -.- first. I am interested in piano, but I can't read the scores. Plus it's off tune. Next I am so interested in learning Korean (trust me, its seriously only the culture and Lang) but I can't get it. Third, I couldn't do a proper job in neither NE photo order and collection of hist ws. Forth, lit para: I'm still writing in past tense. Fifth : I couldn't solve or help my friend feel better. Six: I'm dumb. Seven: I hate xujingxuan. Okeh. I go sleep Liao. Let's not wake up.

2010-07-13T21:55:00.000+08:00

WHATEVER. wgm wasn't uploaded. should i say, was forbidded to upload the vids. please la, if they don't upload how those no money subscribe the channel de people watch=.= plus. PS man isn't uploading too. what's wrong youxxxx? hai. all the shows i want watch don't have sia. i am going crazy. forget it. go play my games liao. bye. i'm hungry.

2010-07-12T00:04:00.000+08:00

Yo. I have a dead blog :D mr lim said touching stuff on friday (: the present is a present to you!
Okeh. Sat -- national lit debate. Reach interchange at around 630. Thn waited for chloe's bus to reach inter. Thn we went 7-11 buy sweets. She bought some. Thn we walked super slowly to school. When we left 7-11 it was around 640. Then walk walk. About at backgate that time 650 Liao. We were like omg. How the hell did we take ten minutes and haven reach school then we chiong lol at nanhua -- The guest of honour damn entertaining. She's a poet. Can go see belinda's blog for further details ;D then lit debate. We didn't win though. But it was a great job (: mr lim also watched it. Lol. He left after that. Then we went for break. Ate polar sugar cake and one choco waffle. Their canteen got damn lots of food. Apple crumble, Japanese food, western food etcetc. But no vegetarian stall. Lol. Belinda bu shuang. Anw, then went to see sec 2 de booth. Happen to see daryl from rhya c12. Bt he nvr see me. Anw, dun think he'll recognize me. Hmm. Then watch poetry slam. Very nice leh. Halfway left Le. The slept on the bus. Reach school at about 1pm. Left first cos need rush for tuition. Saw Julia and Shannon. Julia was like waving thn I couldn't recognize her cos didn't have my specs on. Haha. Anw, then saw liting and shan at inter. Chatted about the nacli and obs camp. Haha. Bathed then chionged to tuition. Nearly late. Belinda nvr go. I was so paying attention:D thn after tuition go pay money Liao jiu chiong home. Once I reach home I threw my bag on the bed and went to bathe and change clothes. Thn prepare prepare and wait for cousin to come.reach yishun safra thn slacked. Thn wedding ceremony begin. I was one of the people popping the party popper. Lol. In the end pop too early. Hai. Food was nice. Thn reach home at Arne 1130. Bathed and slept.

Sunday. Chionged e-math and a-math first. Then fell asleep :D then started chionging srilanka and eng ppt. Thn went bball for a while. I didn't play. Watched sis and huaihuai play nia. Lol. Then at home, completed my eng ppt. Then did the hcl forum thing. Thn ecareers too. History haven do, heckcare Liao. Now gng to sleep, nights (:(:

2010-06-29T14:48:00.000+08:00

Lol. Now at mac eating lunch. Bored. Watching world cup svn vs USA. Nth much. Today chem got another tcher come in see see. In the end is the gūgū. Like relative la. Hai. Then I told the whole world. Haha. Okeh. Gtg bb. next time then upload about the Malaysia trip one

2010-06-14T08:54:00.000+08:00

Watched finish 原來是美男 in three days, on Friday. Have this huge "stone" on my chest ever since then and I can't get rid of it. It's weird. Because that show's not that sad and not that touching (to me). Why should I do to get rid of the feeling?  someone save me. :(

我可不可以再一次相信童話故事里的美麗結局？

2010-06-06T17:52:00.000+08:00

Thanks for ur tags ! :D
qianhui, u are really going to love the camp. The rooms got aircon and beds and blankets and toilet and individual cupboards and dressing table! :D plus Choyz a nice lady (: btw choyz is sorta a trainer there and if I'm not wrong she's taking u guys too. She has over ten years of experience there man. Btw, there very prone to lightning so be careful. Tell me who are the facils when u guys come back eh? I want see if my facil got take u guys ma :D drink tons of water and rest well k? Else you'll fall terribly sick like me :( my fever reached 39.4 yesterday night man. Scare me. Luckily now okeh Le. Maybe will let u guys sleep in tents? xD damn cool to sleep in tents. But very warm. But u get to build the tents urself :D the dining hall also got aircon de leh. The food not bad.Not packed food. U can go the dining hall here de campus mall buy soveniors. :D the place where u guys gather also got aircon ( learning lounge). Lol. It's a high~ class camp. Have damn lots of fun and u will miss ur campmates de!!
Sam, welcome! How's ur granny now? Is she better?

C12 rocks like hell!!!! I miss u guys Le:(

2010-05-28T21:26:00.000+08:00

Okeh, I have decided not to emo anymore :D okeh. Few more days to camp, anticipating !!

Adeline and tsaewoei are so sweeeeet :D

2010-05-28T16:57:00.000+08:00

I Felt my heart tore when you have totally forgotten about me. And it tore twice when I read your blog. Ha, someone will definitely be like.. You deserve it. Who cares. I understand, seriously. I'm just not that impt. Thanks anyway.

I'm just used to running away from it, rather than run toward it and pouring salt all over my wound. I'm still thinking, whether the pain that has lasted for such long time could actually be erased. Ha, bye.

2010-05-28T11:47:00.000+08:00

Now in th mrt on the way to dhoby ghaut. Nothing to do. Lol. Re-watched rolling love. Now re-watching bof. Got this very act cool guy with very HIGHHH hair. Okeh, dunno how to describe. He like wear dark shades with black costume. Haha. I completed my letter wriing with he awesome (not) handwriting. :D then gng to finish my eng and phy and maybe some other more today. Else not enough time la.

29th May. Cousins' birthday party
30th may. Cousin's weddin buffet dinner
31st may - 4th June. Nacli NE camp
7th - 10th June - work experience
11th - phy clinic -.- ssp say till so nice. Haha. I Einstein class seh :D
18th - 20th - going Malaysia

lol. I've been repeaing this schedule for damn lots of time. :/

Jyjy. I think I can perserve and improve my science results..

Best regards to ur granny Sam! The two wishes don't have date due de :D

2010-05-27T16:43:00.000+08:00

SaD results. Hai. PhySics -- all underline.
zai :D anyway, ystd never come school. On mc. Slept for damn long. Hehe.
Anyway, today lit fiesta okeh la, not bad. Then got this tribute to dr gks. He's pro man. He close down all pig farms due to serious pollution problems, transformed the whole of jurong, started the streaming thing, opened jurong bird park etc, formed Singapore's symphonic band etcetc. Farewell :D then went phototaking For NE. Sat at corner front row seh -.- then went take map from teacher for work experience. Then wnt take report book. Talked to kel abit, then pei belinda go lunch w the rest. Then co phototaking. Went through the whole 2nd floor and called all co members out. Okeh. I ate cookies though I'm not supposed to ._. then mac for lunch. Haha.
Yay, dad help me sign for this 12GB internet plan :D and i'm currently on my way home.

I hope it's true, but things always turn out to be a dream for me.

我只是少了安全感，多了保護色。
所以才會選擇以逃避面對事情。
我只是少了面對再斯開傷口的那种痛。

2010-05-17T19:28:00.000+08:00

Friday - 14 may 2010
lit paper was scaryyyyyyy. Poem die Le :D
anyway, went Adeline's house to play. Jialing and Adeline super funny. Adeline's house is like super big. Three storey leh. She got wii, piano, drum set, 3ruan, liuqin, violin, guitar @.@ anyway, then play w her hamster. So scary. Then about four o clock go up play taboo etc. Play till six plus. Then went home. Slept.

15 may.
Went relative's wedding dinner. Eat until super full. X.X then reach joke at about 12am, close to 1am. Slept at 310am. Haha. Mom want kill me Le :D

16 may
grandma's birthday celebration today.
Went to buy her present. Celebrated. Took fam pic. Slept. :D

17 may, today.
Did nothing. Slacked at home cos Jie and I couldn't think of where to go. Then now watching this war show (: bye

3 more wedding dinners and 1 more birthday party to go:D

I hope life will get better. And I hope you've got the idea that I am already starting to detest and look down on you.

2010-05-12T14:30:00.000+08:00

Gratitude ;D
mr Ng just called and ask if I wanna go nacli camp. He placed me in waitin list cos I got another nacli camp on 31 may. First time I got recognized by tcher (:(: ty :D

Going to have 4 wedding dinners and 2 birthday celebrations and 1 camp this year. ㅋㅋ

Busy year ahead. Today got chemistry and history papers. Okay la, not too bad. But got ominous feelin for my results, dunno why :x

2010-05-11T20:18:00.000+08:00

180th post. Amaths was super easy. Except for some parts of the qn. The. Reach home at around 11plus. Slept till 230. :x uber tired. Then had lunch then wasted three hours doing dunno what. Then mugged from 530 to now and is still mugging. Tomorrow need hand in files -.- okay. Jiayou. History and chemistry together. Happy writing. I hope i'll remember to compare three sources for reliability :D

2010-05-08T10:43:00.000+08:00

Nothing much this week, then nacli camp on 31 may. Only me and other I dunno de junior going. Very scared D; plus I got homesick de.. JIAYOUJiayou

2010-05-02T10:35:00.000+08:00

We should put 100% in our work.

12% on Monday
33% on tuesday
40% on Wednesday
13% on thursday
2% on Friday

(:

2010-04-30T22:42:00.000+08:00

A lot of happenings, shan't elaborate. Lol :D made stuff frank with Kelly, hope she understand ;( then ss sucks -.- my reliability qn I compare w one source, GREAT. I am in love with lee hyori. She looks sonlike early 20s but she's actually 30 years old. Anystar :D anyclub anycall...

I merely need time, lol.
I'm learning, from everything

2010-04-29T19:50:00.000+08:00

Lol, English and hcl paper 1 today. Okay la, wrote 909 words for my hcl compo. Ha. Then reach home at about 2pm. Wanted to study and got everything ready by 230pm. In the end was so tired that i slept from 3 plus to 630pm. Wth lorh=.= anyway, studying now. Hai. Good luck to me for ss siahh. Jiayoujiayou!

Life is never better (:

2010-04-26T22:58:00.000+08:00

Best friend's birthday today! :D peishanwas so shocked when she saw them with the cake. Guess she is happy and touched. (: then I feel out. Cos like very out of place. a bit affcted by the cake family thing also. Aiya, zongzhi very out la. Then chem test, shit. All dunno how to do -.- then phy. Wish. Best result ever man. Single digit. Great. Upon 30 somemore. Cried a bit when yaole passed me a little note. Thanks girl! Then hai. Ate n&b and skipped tuition (: n&b rocks! Make ups with my did. Lol. First time trying. Dun think will try again. Lol. Wait for further notices (?) . Lol. I help her draw this punk look, but failed. Muahaha. Okay, that's about it. I haven do finish my homework :D.nights! (:

the harm is done,
you don't even feel sorry

2010-04-21T20:42:00.000+08:00

안넹하세요! Lol, today nothing much, never stay back. never stay back. Nth much. Passed chem. But they having extra test next Monday. Need to study. Han damn pro la, full marks for a maths and first in class for chem-.- okay. Just finished watching hello baby ep 11 :D then now doing my compo. Lol. Actually zhangyan Cher not bad la, lol. Today fac need run 6 rounds nia. Lol. I lost two kg :DD

2010-04-20T22:48:00.000+08:00

Today nothing much in school. Bad day for me. Headache. Then recess time dunno why stomach ache. Hai. Failed a maths. What the hell la. Went s.c.h to watch pri co syf. In the end they go before we reach. Lol. Then Rachel came. Went subway to eat dinner :D Then reach home and now going to sleep. Okay, nights!

I am waiting, for you to say.
Hello

2010-04-19T20:02:00.000+08:00

Today nothing much. Had black eye rings D: very tired. Ms Kaur never come today. :( one free period. Eng did compre mini class test. Ended up playing and writing letter to myself. Wth lorh, haha. Anyway, then physics ssp before physics test. She emphasize on the total diff thing -.- lol. Then Eugene scold vulgar. Haha. I left last page blank :( then went mac slack a bit. bought n&b stuff instead, ha. Then went home. Friends rocks:D tip cheated by dear tohpeishan. Ha. I thought she want borrow two dollars from me. In the end is she want me buy stuff from her. Haha, nvm. Okay. Tml napfa. I go sleep le, bye.
I want play maple._.

2010-04-18T23:41:00.000+08:00

Iphone rocks :D went liling jie's house and did my revision and homework :) yay. Then watched the new beginnings ep three on xinmsn. Then went home. Yesterday de buffet super nice :DD love it. Okay, very tired le. Bye and nights (:

2010-04-17T23:08:00.000+08:00

Flag day today, wasn't good. Went central mac at 6:35am. Met xinkai there and ate breakfast. Then walked to school, tidied and swept the classroom, took my phy notes and went to parade square. Then collected the bag for the donation thing. Is for thong chai medical institution or something. Weixij fell down and her knee got cut. Bled, very scary. Anyway, then mrs elizabeth lee help her clean her wound. Mrs lee was a red cross teacher before that's why she know, lol. Then went met meet the others. 20 people go Dhoby ghaut togeher. Ha. Got : weixin enping weining me chloe Wanda yunwei huixuan emily Adeline fangyuan luoting gwyneth desmond Marcusy geraldp geraldf Eugene chan Russell. I think I didn't miss out anyone, haha. Paiseh if I got miss out anyone. Then went dhoby ghaut, they eat breakfast then went Clarke quay. The guys went separate ways. Then Adeline fangyuan luoting gwyneth stay at plaza sing. Me weixin enping weining walked all the way from Clarke quay to Chinatown. Haha. And also all the way back to Clarke quay. Asked dunno how many people, but In the end only a lady give me one dollar. Like wth la. Somemore got four charbo dao me. I haven even say thong chai out then they walk away, never even bother makin eye contact. I will eat them up like that . Hai. Then went back serangoon central w weixin. Went inter find my dad but he nt there. Then went central. The bbt shop aunty give me :D then saw aqilah. Her friend give me one buck :D happyhappy. Got three dollars. Clara manage to give out all three stacks of stickers. I gave three nia ._. Then Kenneth so good la, stand there then got people automatically give him monry. very lucky lorhh. Then they went n&b. I went to 7-11 and bought a bao cos haven eat lunch. Ha. Then went home alone. Saw Belinda walking to inter when I boarded the bus. Then play with iPhone for long time. Then go meet belinda at heartland mall. Go up, pay money, first lesson. The teacher go ultra fast. Like bullet train. Then after that went heartland buy sushi eat :D then parents come le so took bus to beside liangcourt de hotel for dinner. Theirs dam. Nice.but very full after that. Haha. Okay. I cnt tahan le, need sleep. Bye(:

2010-04-03T13:15:00.000+08:00

LOL, finally blogging:D

sec3 2010 camp rocks.
vico and fifi rock too:D
1st place! :D
really enjoyed myself during the camp,
thankyou vico and fifi.
mr lim rocks:D he actually went to the milo pond and nature rumble with us in his slippers:D.
i bet no other teachers did that. :D:D
i am fortunate to be in OXYVIVA!
tired after that, haha

我不知道我存在的意义。

2010-03-17T15:46:00.000+08:00

I HAVE 21 HOMEWORK :D
bleh, damn long never post, ha.
finish almost half.
left those essays, compo etc.
AHH. ITS WEDNESDAY ALREADY._.

2010-03-02T17:18:00.000+08:00

YAY MY BLOG IS SO DEAD :D

class tio nagged by mr lim cos almost 32 people never attend the physics ssp yesterday-.-
lots of things happen, busy.
got back lit today, 12/25 :(
amaths too, 26/34 :(
social studies, 8/15 :(
hai. :( i start to understand you guys..

suona is fun:D

2010-02-09T19:37:00.000+08:00

ps, blog dead so long, haha.
watching crueltemptation now, notbad la.
autumn concerto last episode liao T.T
watching wo ai hei se bbt too:D
lol. busy sec3 life._. bye:D

2010-01-21T21:17:00.001+08:00

will be posting maybe tomorrow after co or sat after training. so sorry for letting the blog rot fot so long, hahah. busy sec3 life.

2010-01-14T20:42:00.001+08:00

Hmm ,,
lauqhs , idk how i qt in here .
Well , usinq my dad's comp ,
& it automatically siqned into my sister's acc xD

Just nao i think sister ask me help her post ?
So im here postinq . LOL .
Okeh crappinq actually .
Anyway anyway , im Jinqru alriqht , her sister -duh-
Sh's currently in another room and im qonna end this post soon .

Wellwell , taq her moremore ^^

2010-01-10T20:39:00.000+08:00

added 13 3e1 people, going chiong lit now.
my dad just accused me of watching drama when i didnt-.-

2010-01-09T13:56:00.000+08:00

a week's past now..

list of teachers:
LIT - ms rajinde kaur
e maths - mdm ng-peck LC
chemistry / ce - mr christopher LIM! :D
HCL - mdm zhang yan
SS - mdm noraini
EL - mrs shila raj
a maths - mrs koh SY
phy - mr michael low
pe - mr ron low
HE - mr hazry
ps: was refering to the timetable while typing above names. hahah.

tio ne-leader again. xD gonna be ne leader for three years. hahah.
now ne exco com left six people niah. :x
looking forward to co camp~ want be facil! xD

yesterday co. okay la, same stuffs.
lian-ed shichenxuqu.
thn chionged home, bathed and rushed to xms cos of my sis de sec1 orientation de campfire thing.
in the end it rained.
so we watch the campfire VIDEO. which is the short clip of a burning campfire. hahah.
thn got performances and cheers done by the sec1 classes.
saw fongxin.
thn we were laughing all the way.
about 10plus reach home.
thn slept immediately after watching last ep of hotshot. hahah.
nearly fell asleep halfway.
damn tired.
thn woke up by someone spam calling my house. -.-
who turned out to be my aunt calling to ask my grandpa to go play mahjong-.-
thn finished watching today's new ep of zjsg. xD
life's boring.
going to chiong finish my homework later so i can play tomorrow. though there's nth to play.. xD
smsing sam discussing about an idiotic and freaking irritating girl. :D

how come mr OHS is such a tiko who goes around looking at people's inside de? disgusting despo guy-.-
please la, isnt it irritating and weird for students to have to button up to their collars during his lessons and make sure he doesnt stand a chance to see?
oh, hi to teackers who are reading the blog (by any chance) hahah.
this world is getting irritating.. wrong decision made two years ago...

reply to tags:

-- samantha:D --
lol, thanks for tagging, happy 2010 too!

-- & PAMELIN --
yo! happy new year to you too! xD

-- KELLY (: --
hahah, yay! ty for taggin:D ya lorhh. scarli he stalking 3e1 de people de blog. xD lol.

-- qiaohan --
:D thanks for tagging! :D btw, u still blogging?

i wish i wasnt born.

2010-01-05T15:49:00.000+08:00

new school, new start.

form teacher: mr chistopher lim:D
he's a not bad teacher though.
HE SAYS TEACHERS ACTUALLY STALK STUDENTS' BLOGS. xD

other teachers next time thn say, want go watch show thn nap for a while le.
i think i like 2e3 better as i can now feel the bond, tht 3e1 hasnt got YET.
im sure e1 will bond:D
i hope i will score good marks! :D

im afraid of tomorrowD: , really, you wouldnt understand. thts why you ignored me...
it is like a fear inside me that i am unable to overcome it.
i kept convincing myself, be optimistic, everything's going to be fine.
but it isnt going to be fine. nothing is going to be fine...

why must i try to accept you and accomodate you, instead of you also trying to improve our friendship?
why must i try to do the best to not be angry with you, while you are so irresponsible and heckcare everyone's feelings?
why? why must i even know you.

we are drifting apart girl, really.
we have lesser topics now.
it is like even she can talk more thn me to u.
i am not the kind of person who will start a topic. neither am i one who will act polite in front of close people.
i arent.

2010-01-01T22:29:00.001+08:00

will post next time, bye.
-- stressed --

2010 now. having a hard time to adjust myself.
blogger got some problem.
left with hcl book review and one newspaper commentary, u guys lehh?
xujingxuan, jiayou.

qizideyouhuo getting interesting.
im just thinking, how can i make myself smile more?

2009-12-27T17:24:00.000+08:00

22nd dec 2009 - clique outing without qianhui :(
not bad la, quite fun. but very tired. xD
went vivo and city square.
lunch in city square de kopitiam.
ate korean food. xD
not bad la, quite spicy for me though. :x

play-ed thn walk around.
thn went vivo.
also walked around. muahaha.
went arcade too:D
me love arcade.
played guitar hero with sam. quite fun la. first time try. xD
was like so chuatio by two guys in the skypark. xd

24th dec 2009 - outing with two malaysian relatives and liling jie.
went science centre with jie they all. quite interesting.
was there till the people shoo us out. xD
details elaborated in the previous post. x: lazy me. :D

25th dec 2009 - wild wild wet with jie and two OTHER malaysian relatives. xD
jie's bday today (25th). and its xmas too. xD
my grandpa also today bday.
lol.
went wildwildwet.
LONG queue.
bought family package. lol.
tried everything there except waterworks. hahah.
played from 11plus to 3/4 plus. xD
ate kfc. heehee.
they got the soap/bubble de thing tht day. quite fun la.
thn went home after a while.
got little sunburn :x
thn celebrated grandpa's bday, quite fun la.

26th dec 2009 - family outing
went hougang mall for dinner.
ate qiji de set 5.
but the cashier thought i buy set 1-4 de qi-zhong-yi-ge.
thn she charge me 3+ when it is supposed to be 4+.
saved 70 cents :x
mum bought new handphone today.
ate the mango snowice too:D

27th dec 2009 - shopping trip with mum and sis
went tam mall with mum and sis today, okay la.
bought a ring:D
now chionging homework-.-

reply to tags:

-- samantha:D --
tyty, u too.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY:D

-- KELLY (: --
xD yaya.
a lot of people haven finish as well.
i cnt find newspapers. :S

btw, the HCL bk review need DRAW out two things : the cover page and also the character/scene ar?

2009-12-25T01:08:00.000+08:00

at my cousin's house now.
went science centre just now, it ROCKS. xD
went to look at the BODYworld.
it was like woah.
veh nice, go see.
thn reached here quite late, thn go eat dinner.
damn full. xD
tried fried icecream. okok la.
i just missed hotshot-.-

bloghopped just now :D
had a LONG day today.
thn my shoulder veh pain, cos carry the slingbag for too long.

science centre is DAMN far lorhh.
at first took bus72 to yiochukang interchange,
thn took mrt to JURONGeast, which was more thn 14 stops, i think.
i stood all the way on the mrt, damn-ed.

bye~

reply to tags:

-- KELLY (: --
ya, sian lorhh. xD haven finish homeworkS :(

-- samantha:D --
lol, ya. xD

-- ♥小TEARR , sister ! --
yo, ty! xD

Six Degrees Could Change the World

2009-12-19T14:32:00.000+08:00

watch:

1) Could Just One Degree Change the World?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2_ZQRIsn2pA&feature=channel
2) 2 Degress Warmer: Ocean Life in Danger
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P-0_gDXqYeQ&feature=channel
3) 3 Degrees Warmer: Heat Wave Fatalities
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6rdLu7wiZOE&feature=channel
4) 4 Degrees Warmer: Great Cities Wash Away
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=skFrR3g4BRQ&feature=channel
5) 5 Degrees Warmer: Civilization Collapses
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7nRf2RTqANg&feature=channel
6) 6 Degrees Warmer: Mass Extinction
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O8qmaAMK4cM&feature=channel

-from youtube.

SAVE EARTH!
every degree matters!
global warming issue is getting serious.
do every means to try save earth.
cut down usage of electricity & AIRcon.
and etc.

"The changes in the last 12 years that have the scientists most alarmed are happening in the Arctic with melting summer sea ice and around the world with the loss of key land-based ice masses. It's all happening far faster than predicted."
- according to a comment from the clip.

"regrets never starts in the beginning, it always starts at the end."
save gaia.

2009-12-18T22:15:00.000+08:00

i completed zero homework.

wee~~

dead._.

fb-ing.

got a girl add me cos she want be my neighbour in zooworld.

i was like hahah, fine.

jio-ing clique out on 22nd. dunno they free mahh. lol.

left off9 msg to tps and yqh. xD

but i think yqh got some prob, according to jeremy. not sure.

waitin for 11.30pm so i can watch hotshot. though watch b4 le.

hahaah, my parents sleeping now~

stress-ed, sec3..

reply to tag:

-- -♥ 小PIGU :D --

lol, ya. hahah.

change name liao ar. xD

ty for tags:D

-- samantha:D --

lol. YAY.

me too, hai. hate holidays.

holiday = homework;

LONG holiday = MORE homework. hahah.

and, when are they giving us the commonwealth essay topic?

2009-12-17T19:58:00.000+08:00

rotted at home for DAYS.
still have the cough. :x

~~i have got zero homeworks done~~

sian-ed.

reading "thanks for nothing, nick maxwell" by debbie carbin. xD
nice book.
read 8 chapters in 2 days. :D
~~but my mum just came by and said "you two (refering to me and sis) arh, borrow books from library then leave it to rot de." and i was like WTH.~~

playing uno (msn) with pamelin. xD
sam seehui huixuan faster reply me~ :D

asked them out for a swim or whatever, but everytime cannot.
okay, nvm, i dun blame them.
next time want go out dunn tell me.
say i everytime jio u guys wrong timing, my fault ar?
at least i tried. u?
nights~

reply to tags:

-- samantha:D --
lol, ya.

-- `♥ 12's xBAICHI :D --
ty for tagging. xD
ya, LING damn chio. xDxD

-- #!JIANGLEI&(: --
lol, thanks for tagging! xD

2009-12-14T15:35:00.001+08:00

fever! xD
yesterday afternoon my temperature is like 38.8 siahh, some sort of highest temp for me.
hahah, cos my temp hardly hits 39. xD
cough flu sorethroat all come and find me lorhh. -.-
now better liao.

watched the circus gouzaidui yesterday. got flh :D
its last time de show lahh, they replay it.
arron was saying he got fb acc, so i go add. hahah.
sian-ed.
sis blasting music now. lol.
just heard that arron was 'discovered' on yahoo. hahah.
like he put his pic on yahoo then got 'discovered'. xD
weird way.

went pamelin de blog again, muahaha.
the scissors paper stone one veh cute. xD

SAM~ FASTER JIO US OUT! xD

reply to tag:

-- & PAMELIN --
hahah, lazy tag mahh.
my temp go back normal le. finally, hahah.
thanks for concern:D

2009-12-12T18:14:00.000+08:00

seriously bored.
have sorethroat, so stay-ed at home :x
still watching whoareyou. xD

i dunn want school to start,
i dunn want to join fac,
im worried D;

2009-12-12T11:58:00.000+08:00

new skin! xD (navi skin)
nothing much to do.
got slight sorethroat :(
bored bored bored. xD
starting to like grey :D
there is supposed to be a picture at the profile there, but it was deleted or smth.
going to watch zjsg liao. sian-ed.

sam! u nvr jio clique out ah! still go watch new moon! xDxDxD (JKJK)

2009-12-10T12:59:00.001+08:00

blog-hopped, while playing cafeworld. xD
then spent too much time reading pamelin's blog, my food overcooked x_x
nothing much to do.
woke up at 11.30am today. (around there)
hahah.
bake-d cake yesterday, lol.

IM BORED.

and, my sis just passed me my bday present (which i chose myself). xD she totally forgot about it. lol.

reply to tag:

-- samantha :D --
yoyo, xD
peishan dunno when free lehh, then qianhui dunno when come back~
ahh~ two busy people. xD

2009-12-07T23:11:00.003+08:00

today got a cold.-.-
used computer for a while to watch autumn concerto, then went to read a book.
took a nap after that as i was tired, then mum came back and woke me up._.
went to eat at bao xi restaurant. xD
damn full.
then went interchange to pass my dad his dinner.
his collegues were like woah so good. xD
then went hougang mall shop.
bought nothing. hahah.
then went home.
realised no one is at home and we didnt bring our key, so we went to my aunt's house to borrow key.
she dont have our key. so we went to another aunt's house. xD
aunt was alone at home so we sat and chat with her for a while, then went home.
grandparents just reached home when we were on the way back, according to my uncle. lol.
cos my grandparents and my uncle went to attend a relative's funeral.
the relative was once my dad's boss for 10 years. and my dad said he is a bad boss, but he realised it after he stopped working for him. lol.

playing cafeworld. xD
the game hang-ed then my food overcook-ed. zzz.
im really bored now, waiting for hotshot, though i watch it before. hahah.
bye!

reply to tag:

-- & PAMELIN --
hahah, thankyou :D

2009-12-06T21:09:00.001+08:00

150th post.

went malaysia today.
a place named chaah. o.o
woke up at 5plus.
wasnt really very tired.
then got onto the car at 6plus.
reached my relative's house at 10plus close to 11am. lol
there are LOTS of flies around.
my family dunn dare eat the food. hahah.
then went a place where they have the ''wedding lunch'' at around 1 or 2pm.
the food was okay.
got prawns, fish, meat, bunbun:D etc etc.
the toilet was OMG.
the flush wasnt working and someone poo-ed before so ... ya. (*_*)lll
then rain-ed.
took car back and just reached home.
took about 4hrs (?) to come back siah.
xD
but it was a new experience.
they got karaoke there.
the relative go up sing and ............................ xD
the speaker too loud and our ears nearly 'spoil'

reply to tag:

-- passerby --
u XUJINGRU horh? xD

was hoping, but it turned out to be just a foolish thought.

2009-12-05T21:52:00.001+08:00

watched animal planet just now. xD
the guy go find the anaconda (sp?) snake.
he found one DAMN big de.
he say its about 17ft.
then i go find pics of tht type of snake.
THEY ARE HUGE.

going malaysia tml :D
leaving at 530 @.@
i think im going to be sleeping on my way there siah. xD
borrowed some books from the library. hahah.
for the english book review~ xD

2009-12-05T15:34:00.000+08:00

going malaysia on tomorrow and coming back on 6th dec :D:D
no shows to watch recently.
going to check out my new textbooks. xD

SAM~ FASTER JIO CLIQUE OUT~ xD

bye, going to rot le.

2009-12-04T15:45:00.000+08:00

nothing much to do.
waiting for the youtube d users to upload ko3anguo and autumn concerto. xD
just went to school to buy the books this morning.
then got heavy rain -.-
sian-ed.

why no one update blog?! xD
i sian dao go play cafeworld lehh!

reply to tag:

-- & PAMELIN --
lol! okay, thanks! xD

2009-12-02T15:58:00.000+08:00

bored.
hahah.
watching MIT d last episode. :D
playing cafeworld too! xD
i everytime touch book jiu fall asleep sia.
read the chinese book review d book halfway. lol.
holiday pass by one month le lehh.
damn fast lah!

pamelin~! you got any lobang for parttime jobs? xDxD

2009-12-01T16:29:00.000+08:00

温岚 - 我全都相信

我相信你说的每一句
就算是明知是甜言蜜语
可是我总觉得哪里有问题
也许这些话语不只说给我听

我相信是因为你的忧郁
所以把感情陷入难题
没关系我有做坏人的勇气
就算毁灭自己也要捍卫爱情

我全都相信相信你说的每一句
每一句我答应我可以我不会敷衍
我全都相信相信你说的每一句
每一句只差一句我爱你

我相信你说的每一句
就算是一切都变成回忆
可是我逃不开也回不去
也许这些话语是讽刺的回忆

我相信是因为你的忧郁
所以把我永远困在这里
没关系我会继续撑下去
给我勇气呼吸我只需要一句
我想你说不出我爱你

this song not bad lehh. go watch the mv.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0lE_RFo3NOE
the mv veh sad. xD

re-watched:
BSM 4times
BSC 4times
MIT 2times
TKA 2times
:D:D

2009-11-28T22:35:00.000+08:00

just finish watching theykissagain. xD
cried again. hehe.
the ending was nice.
hahaa. though this tyoe of story rarely, or never, happens in real life.

watching momolove now.
very boring.

i want go s.c.h.. xD

表面并不足以说明一切。看似坚强，但其实不堪一击。